I dunny kin.

I know there's a blue horizon somewhere up ahead just waiting for me.

Even if getting there means leaving you behind.

Sometimes life's so bittersweet.

I guess it's gonna have to hurt,

I guess I'm gonna have to cry, and let go of some things I've loved to get to the other side.

I guess it's gonna break my heart,

Like falling when you're tryna fly.

It's sad but sometimes moving on with the rest of your life starts with goodbye.

:))))

I have a few things to get off of my chest.

Firstly the disgusting disease that is causing my chest to feel tight and is making me cough a lot. Though today it is easing a bit.

Secondly slow walkers are so annoying. You could at least move out of my way.

Thirdly people make me sad. People who break trust make me sad. People who lie make me sad. People who don't embrace life make me sad. People who think I'm a fool who doesn't know what they are doing make me sad. Not sad in the way that I feel sad in myself. Sad in the sense that I feel bad for them. Although I might think this world would be nicer, happier and more cheery without such folk, I actually quite like them for helping to make this world as diverse and strange as it is. So people who make me sad, I love you. :)

Fourthly I hate this whole 'nomnomnom' stage that people are going through. A good friend of mine started doing it a few months ago and now EVERYBODY does it. It is so irritating and is in no way endearing and I just wish people would keep their 'nom's to themselves. It is really annoying.

Lastly I would like very much for someone to decide whether I should do a 12-15,000 word dissertation in my final year, or if I should just stick to doing all modules with normal coursework/exam layouts. Help?

I almost got murdered today. It wasn't fun. Wind clearly has some kind of vendetta against me today.

Peace x

D.W.B

This time it'll be different. Yeah, this time, it'll be different.

Your lips are darker than before and the bags under your eyes are blacker than they were and there's something different about your skin and nobody knows how you got home last night.

Your bones are making me feel weary and when you speak I can't hear a word that you say and nobody knows how you got home last night.

If there were 3 old dances we could dance maybe, 3 old songs that we could sing maybe; everything could be alright but, I keep tripping up the steps and there are just some words I forget and the tunes are fuzzy in my mind and nobody knows how you got home last night.

And my brain hurts. My shoulders ache. I'm not sure if my heart can take.

My brain hurts, my shoulders ache and I, I have never felt this kind of pain.

My brain hurts and my shoulders ache and I think my heart is about to break.

And, nobody knows how you got home last night.

Still, no-one knows how you got home last night.

Just a little something.

D.W.B

Temporary Home.

Mmmhmmm. This is our temporary home.

I haven't written one of these for a while so I'm taking this late Saturday night opportunity to do so.

My life is fine. The same ole same ole. Uni. Home. Nothing is different. It's good, it's fine, it's the same.

I have given up Facebook and whilst this is probably a temporary move, I have not missed it the majority of the time I've gone without it. I will probably start using it again in a couple of months, but on a far less frequent basis than ever before, and only to arrange to meet friends, for example.

This move has made my irritation with people online greater than ever before. This obviously mainly stems from twitter where it is easy access to strangers. I don't follow as many people I don't know (bar famous people) as I used to. Maybe 3? People on that site scare me. I tweet a lot, but this is mainly at night when I'm indoors after a day of doing things and being active. If I tweet during the day, it's usually from my phone when I'm out living life, even if it is just in lectures. There are, however people who tweet constantly, all day, every day. It scares me. I don't understand it. Why don't people go for walks and enjoy the weather, even if it's raining? Why don't people embrace such things that will be taken from us sooner, rather than later? It's beyond me. Even just walking around campus is something I enjoy. The different people, with different backgrounds. The trees, the wildlife.

It scares me that they seem to get so attached to people, strangers that they meet on such sites. People I have met on twitter are mostly very nice, but I have real-life friends & those are the people that matter the most to me and I just can't quite comprehend a life where I make all of my friends on a website. They more often than not live far away and I find it hard to believe you can ever truly know somebody you meet from behind a screen? They aren't friends. They are nice strangers who put up a photo with a cheesy smile which they probably remove from their faces as soon as the flash from their camera taking such a photo has gone. It's bewildering. Alas, each to their own. I just pray for these people and hope they realise that real life is a beautiful thing that you need to experience first hand. I'm even talking about interactions with people face to face. I think Uni has taught me that meeting new people in person is an incredible thing.

I say this every year so I will be brief this time. Valentines day is a pointless way for large corporations to take their greed and abuse a seemingly naive public. It is a way for manufacturors (sp?) to make money in between Christmas and Easter and disgusts me. If anybody needs a specified holiday to show and tell somebody that they 'love' them instead of doing it all year round then I can't help but feel that maybe such feelings of 'love' have been misunderstood by said people. Either that or they're a dumbass. This is the jist. I'm sure you get it. (I wonder how many people will suggest I'm bitter about being single? Probably one of the people celebrating valentines day...)

I needed to get these things off my mind and typing them out so I can read them helps. Sorry this has been a boring/moany one.

D.W.B

Can of soda and a lime tree forest.

My eyes are sore and my head is tired and so I try to keep consciousness whilst I babble on and bore.

2010 so far has been good. My new years was so much fun. I was very drunk and I fell over but spilt barely any of the three pints I was holding. At 5 to midnight I downed two pints so that I could be outside by the Thames as the clock struck. At midnight it snowed and the fireworks went off and I felt like I was in some kind of cheesy 1920s film. It was fun. I hope you all enjoyed your festive periods and eat far too much, drank even more, and put on a couple of stone.

Isn't it weird that we call the piece of fabric we put onto a table a table 'cloth'. It is clearly just a bit of material. Why not a table rug? Or a table throw? These things never cease to amaze my mind hahaha.

I really want some McNuggets right now. 20. If I was insured on the car I would be off to that drive through in no time. 

I HATE SNOW/ICE. I am sick sick SICK to death of it. It was fun first time round when I built Roger but truth be told it's old now and I think it needs to get out of my life.

I have relaxed so far this year. I love my new wii fit plus and have played it every day. I am simply the best at heading, being a penguin, skateboarding, muscle work outs and snow ball fights. Don't try compete 'coz you will FAIL.

I have another 10ish days off of Uni in which I am going to begin revising for the summer (I KNOW, changed man much?) and will continue to relax. Tomorrow (Friday) I will go out and have a few drinks to say goodbye to most of my friends until Easter time. :(

I am so sad that Gavin and Stacey ended. It was such a good series of programmes but I am, in a way glad they decided to stop it. The story had been told and it is definitely best to quit whilst something is popular. Best to keep the memory good and not tarnish it!

I don't know what I'm going to watch if I stay in on a Friday night without FNWJR now he has left the beeb!

Avatar 3D is such a good film with such good meanings. We need to make a CHANGE to save our planet! Instead of throwing all your rubbish into one bin, seperate the plastic, card, paper etc and recycle. It's not hard. It gets collected. Don't be lazy. Little things such as this make a difference. Do it. :) I also want my own Avatar so that I can visit Pandora :(.

This is all really. Babbled on long enough.

Aim high, work hard, achieve great!

Heal the world, peace and love.

x

Au revoir 2009.

I just re-read my end of 2008 blog. I've removed it because it was childish and immature of me. However, I am glad to say that in many ways I have acheived my goals.

First and foremost I managed to put myself first. I became selfish and enjoyed it. No-body interefered in my life and happiness at all because I didn't let anyone become as important part of my life as me. This is a lifestyle change I'd like to carry on into the new year.

Secondly, I only went and bloody passed my first year of uni! Everyone says how easy it is but trust, there were a few shakey moments! Now to pass year two with a decent grade because it ACTUALLY counts this year. Bad times.

2009 has honestly been the best year of my life, and who'd of thought it for the rubbish age that was 19! I also decided that even though I am broke, money should never be an issue. Therefore I enjoyed another Reading Festival, had fun in Corfu, went out to Opium almost every Thursday and had a nice week away in Disneyland Paris...and that was just the summer! ;)

So this AWESOME year has come to a close and unfortunately a mere day or two before things have started to get shakey. However, now I have my new head on I know to cut things off from the source before the snowball effect starts and things get ten times worse. Thus, tomorrow all irrelevancies shall be forgotten and my day will be spent sleeping and relaxing in preparation for welcoming a new decade.

2010 is going to be big. I promised myself 2009 would be and I suceeded. Therefore, I have to suceed in this and have to suceed in making 2010 EVEN better. I WILL triumph! 

I will eat healthier and get fitter. I want to start working out again and want to re-gain the stamina I used to have when I used to train.

This, is my main targer or 'resolution' as society likes to call it ;).

I want to heal the world in anyway I can. I will drop no litter. I will use roll-on deodrants. I will recycle even more than I already do. These are the little things that make a difference. One person can't make a change so I suggest anyone who reads this do the same so that we can make the difference together. It will be good because we will have green trees for longer and oxygen to breathe when we go for walks along the beach and less disgusting pollution being forced into our lungs. :) 

So, this is it. 2009 is DUNZO...pretty much. I hope you have all had as good of a year as I have and I hope your 2010 is even better. Make a change. Heal the world, spread peace and love. Fight for what you believe. 

Peace x

Change

What you gonna do with the 36 cents, sticky with coke on your floor board when a woman on the street is huddled in the cold on a sidewalk vent trying to keep warm? Do you call her over and hand her the change, ask her her story, ask her her name, or do you tell yourself 'you're just a fool, just a fool to believe you can change the world...you're just a fool, just a fool to believe you can change the world'. 

What you gonna do when you're watching T.V. and an ad comes on, you know the kind. Flashing up pictures of a child in need, for a dime a day you could save a life. Do you call the number, reach out a hand or do you change the channel and call it a scam? Or do you tell yourself 'you're just a fool, just a fool to believe you can change the world...you're just a fool, just a fool to believe you can change the world'.

The smallest things can make all the difference, love is alive don't listen to them when they say 'you're just a fool, just a fool to believe you can change the world...'.

The world's so big, it can break your heart and you just wanna help but not sure where to start so you close your eyes and send up a prayer into the dark...

'You're just a fool just a fool to believe you can change the world' DON'T LISTEN TO THEM WHEN THEY SAY 'You're just a fool, just a fool to believe you can change the world'.

Eggplants and sausage rolls,

daylight dinners and Dartford tolls. 

I am writing this as I'm just about to head into 'reading' week of term uno year deux (I think that's a mix of Spanish and French, trevs)! These past four weeks have been madness and so much fun. I am really enjoying my second year, the course is so much more fun and I actually enjoy the extra reading. Yesterday I learnt about positivism and this guy Lombroso who thought different face shapes, skull shapes, body types etc decide whether someone is gonna become a criminal- what a top class joker! 

I haven't been going out much. I'm such a mature second year :). Had a birthday or two. Been for a couple of drinks here and there. Went back to R-Town for one random ('albeit slightly dull' - Phoebe Buffet hahaha) night. And on Saturday we finally had our house warming. Me and Lindsey worked so hard on the basement to make it useable. We bought fairy lights, got rid of all of the thousands (no lie) of cobwebs and insects, put posters up, cleaned the bar and painted our hands all over the walls. It looks so good now. The night was awesome! Twas too jokes. I particularly enjoyed the guy who walked up two flights of stairs to get my vodka from my room for me- what a mug! Haha. I jest, I jest, a kind young man he was. This night HOWEVER, did bring with it a huge negative...

...THE MINE GAME! I would tell you about it but then you'd be involved and you have to personally tell me if you want to be involved otherwise it ruins it, but let's just say it's the BAIN/BANE (sp) of my life, but my biceps are gonna benefit muchos. I want to start running. Maybe.

Our house is cold.

I LOVE pot noodles. I've suddenly got a bit of a weird pregnant lady craving for them and have one each night as a snack :). Tonight, however, the corner shop was sold out and I had to have a disgusting wannabe pot noodle that was butters and I had to throw it away!. NOT cool corner shop, not cool at all!

I've had a job interview a la weekend and find out tomorrow if I get it, and I have another interview back home on Thursday. I might hopefully start having money again, woop woop! I've missed being able to afford to shop in Topman. 

Next week, as I said is reading week and I'll be back and forth between home and C-Town. I want to go to a court one day, I have to do a library assignment, I might have job training AND I want to see my family. I will be busy and will have to do uni work in this time also. Action packed Dean!

I think this is all for now. I will try to blog more but it is just SUCH effort, and I'm really not that interesting! Most of you probably aren't even reading this...but if you are HELLO TO YOU GOOD TWITTER FOLLOWERS OUT THERE! You are my favourites. Haha. 

I leave you with this...

'Know God... Know Peace. No God.. No Peace!.' Rev Run Simmons.

Peace.

D.W.B