Starve before carve...

...I need to do that more. It is sooo good but I get full so easily! I wish I'd left room for ice cream. Probably a good thing I didn't. Fatty.

Went Venue on Friday to celebrate the end of what could be my last ever exam period. It was alright. Not great. Bit boring. I didn't drink half as much as I usually do but got really drunk even though I didn't think I was at the time. I blame the tequila. I woke up feeling fine. Then after my shower I felt awful. Worst headache. Felt like I was going to be sick. After numerous attempts of pukeage at home and at Hillside I eventually vom'd in the street of Hillside Avenue :-).

We went to Keynestock. I eat a burger and my hangover was cured so I carried on drinking. Beer was a good time. The bands were really good, some of them - anyway. I liked the one with the girl who we couldn't tell if she was a girl or a boy. I also liked a band called Tigerwolf and a band who were 50's inspired. People danced as if they were in Grease. A few highlights came from China who didn't realise there were different types of cheese she just thought there was 'like, Asda cheese?'. She has also revealed her fear of people dressed up (after I pushed her into the man dressed as a sub outside subway :-)) and was very scared of the men dressed up as animals at Keynestock. She also persisted to shout 'THAT'S ME!' when a band stated their next song was called 'Classy Jezebel'. Oh Chinchilla...

Today I did nothing all day. I was so bored! Who knew I'd miss having revision to do? I have watched everything good on all the iplayer type websites :-(. This evening I went for a carve. It was such a good time, as always.

PEACE x

Well I never

Tomorrow is my last exam of my last year at university. Hopefully, that is. I need to actually have passed these exams. If I have though, then tomorrow is the last time I will ever do anything academic at the University of Kent.

These last three years have gone ridiculously quick!!! I remember the exams in my first year when I didn't even really revise because it didn't matter that much. These though, I have revised for for two months, pretty much daily. I have to scribble my notes over and over for it to register. I have a lump that comes up on my finger when I write too much. I have a blister on my thumb where I've been using a pen so often. My right eye has been twitching for a month now even though I've been sleeping full nights. I'm constantly tired. If I revise now, I get an instant ache in my head. Yes, this years exam period has been quite something.

On Monday I had my Youth and Crime exam. I thought it would be the easiest, ironically it was the hardest of the three I've so far sat. I'd revised topics that came up, but the things the questions around them topics were focusing on were the parts I'd barely revised. I just blagged it and hope I can get enough marks to scrape a pass.

I hope I get a 2:2 overall in my degree. I'll be disappointed if not.

It's 9.22 and I'm falling asleep so I think I'll go to bed now and watch Gavin and Stacey or something before I sleep. I'm always a bit scared I'll oversleep for a morning exam. I rarely get up at 7.30. I have two alarms set, plus my Dad is going to ring me and make sure I'm awake. How am I going to get up if I have a 9-5 in a few months?

I think my house here is haunted. Today has been a miserable day. It has rained a lot and been really dark. The house has felt really eery and I thought I saw a beheaded Victorian lady in the garden earlier when I was washing up. She was wearing a corset. One day soon maybe I'll write a short story about what I think happened to the pub that's now my house (well, for another month at least).

Peace x

Exams

I'm currently in the middle of my exams and wanted to do a quick blog to remember this feeling.

I AM SO STRESSED AND FEEL A LITTLE SUICIDAL! Had one exam (Gender & Crime) which was okay but annoyingly I over-revised...

TOMORROW however I have my most dreaded exam for Terrorism in Modern Society. It is awful, I have not learnt anything, I have not revised enough, I know I'll have nothing to say and I'm scared I'll fail the module and won't be able to graduate in July. DREADING IT! Luckily a lot of people seem to feel the same. Hopefully all exams will be equally as rubbish so there won't be a high standard to judge us against.

My room is currently covered with books, reading packs, large spider diagrams and notes upon notes that I scribble out repeatedly to try and remember.

Two more exams after tomorrow (Youth & Crime, and Mental Health). Not even looked at them yet but let's pretend I have so I don't get more stressed and risk a heart attack.

PEACE x

I'm obsessed with the mess that's America.

I wish Katie Cable would answer her phone.

'IF YOU'RE A LIVE, YOU PICK UP THE PHONE!!!!'

Peace x

Howl.

Hello.

I really must write a couple more of these, I keep forgetting and in a couple of months this blog will be over, it'd be nice to have quite a substantial amount of writing to look back on. I'm unsure if I spelt substantial correctly.

I just read my last blog, I can officially confirm that (providing I pass the entire year) I NEVER HAVE TO DO COURSEWORK AGAIN! Biggest relief ever. The week after my previous blog was, in every way 'hell week' - I have never experienced a week like it. Waking up early, working on essays constantly, going to uni for revision lectures, doing coursework in the library in-between, coming home and doing essays, reading a LOT of books to help the essays, printing them (which believe me is a LOT more trouble than it sounds what with needing printer credit and printers printing on both sides EVEN THOUGH YOU TELL IT NOT TO...) etc etc...it was just general ag. Alas, it's all done :-).

This has reminded me that this week I also had the nicest carv ever. Honest. If you ever go Canterbury, go to the Victoria Hotel for their carv, proper buff and me and Broomy shared two deserts just to make it even better.

I then packed up a LOT of stuff (my books and notes pretty much took up an entire suitcase...) and headed back to Essex where I have been based for a month now. I've not gone out clubbing ONCE (I'm proud, you should be too) and have actually focused on revision more than ever, although I still know I know nothing and feel under-prepared. It pisses me off when people say 'oh you're just saying that, you'll be fine' as if they know how much work you've done, how much work you have to do, how much you have to learn for exams - no, you don't know so shut up and believe me when I say I'm not ready for them. Gahhh. Anyway yeah, I've been to the pub a few times, saw N-Dubz and Pro Green at the o2 and that's about it. Oh and I saw all my Essex mates over Harrow Lodge in one of the bank holidays. It was cool. I've liked having time to myself. I'm ready to go back to uni, do my exams and then, spend three weeks getting off my face with Katie and Broomy. We're going to have a posh day and spend money from our loan because we've never had any left over before, this shall be the first time :-).

I've had a few beers and my eyes hurt now.

I DON'T WANT EXAMS.

I like old movies, like The Godfather Three.

Peace x

P.S. Echoes by Laura Dockrill is a good book of short stories.

P.P.S. One of my oldest friends moved into his first house today, with his fiance. Tomorrow we're going over for a bit of a housewarming and I'll probably have a few beers.

P.P.P.S. My sister is 25 on Sunday, how unfortunate to turn a quarter of a century! Dreading THAT day!